The wrong side of me
Whoa, I just hate being frank and sensitive because it shows the real me when i am hurt. Mostly if i am not confident, i leave the place. If i dont like the person i am talking too, i will not talk. Hehehe. Maybe this is one reason why people judge me i am childish, yes i am. Because i am too transparent when it comes to real side. I just show the real me. Hehehe. Why i cant be just pretend everything is okay when actually there is a problem, coz i just hate being untrue. hehehe.
moved on, didnt expect
I am not suppose to believe, by strong determination, you can. First very important is you must love yourself. Just give time, more time to yourself, do the secondaries if she is the primary, and dont forget to look for another one.. hmm its not replacement, but something which you can make your time memorable. Something legendary. At first it will be so hard for you to do, but remember you will not reach the finish line if you didnt even start, and if you will not start that pain will stay until more time will pass.
I am just feel sorry about the acceptance for others. You might say, "if she is the one that makes you happy then you must fight for it", But "If she is the one who will make you sad and affect all important to you, what should you do" The principle here is, you must love your son and daughters first even they are not yet existing. Think of the future, not the present.
One thing helps a lot is not believing into every words stated. Believing will gives more issues and more problems. Time to move on and doesnt need another intermitent issues and fall back plans with returning what is previously doing, because you will just giving yourself more pains and more problems if you will not stop. If you started to moved on, dont return! Even its hard at first, you will find it not difficult as month goes by. A hard effort is required. Think that it is not your lost, think positively, think about yourself, if she is still your hapiness, just think about doing a good discipline, avoid places that makes think of her, dont worry you can return when you finally moved on.
Hope everybody must now accept that need to limit. And also remember that even time given or attention given changed, there is no problems, relationships as friend never changed, (but relationship as planned family changed and it must be expected). If previously, attention, time and everything is given, that was because of planting a plan and future on there side, but now... but despite of it, nothing is more important but the love and friendship involve despite of no communications and attentions. But most important, acceptance of reality.
Trust… a one word that makes you happy
Why trust might lost, you might ask why they dont trust you. Maybe it is because of a previous mistake you done that it maybe hard for them to believe new promise. Trust is a sign of love, without trust is restrictions and pains. People dont feel confortable or good if someone they care about dont have trust to them. Anyway, when trust is lost, it maybe hard to bring back. Try to look at some example, if the bank allow you to borrow money, and you are paying that without many delay, so the bank will trust you, they will even extend your credit for the next time. But what if you skip a month, the bank trust will be go down. So how can we return trust, if someone we really care for, we must talk to them and explain our part. But dont expect an instant outcomes, they will look on your promises if you will do that, and after that trust will go back.
You dont need to explain yourself
You dont need to explain yourself to those who love you because it is not needed, and to those who hate you because they dont believe you. Always remember there is a time to speak and a time to keep quite.
September 2008
I am predicting that time that i must finished what ive started. If ever i will treat myself... planning to spend just what i want, lol. Its a gift for me. It maybe hard for an amatuer like me. But i know and hope i can finished, its my greatest worldly dream. Anyway even it might not be happen i am still complete because its like i am already asking for excess. lol
Do you teach? Everybody must impart knowledge, its a way to make us happy
Before you leave home…
1. Do you have self-confidence to teach and have the will of imparting your knowledge to the best of your ability?
2. Are you prepared with your instructional manual for the whole this day?
Before you leave the faculty room…
1. Do you have self-confidence to teach?
2. Did you bring your needed instructional manual for the purpose?
After class…
1. Can you evaluate your self that did you done a good teaching method to them?
2. Do you think that they learn what you are teaching?
Be honest to yourself, If your answer are all yes, congratulations. If no, readjustment is needed. We are not perfect, the attention is always on ours, willingness is more important than looking what is in return. Teaching is like helping, no money can buy or even pay you on what you are doing. Its the noblest profession, its not just a profession its a way of life. Teaching is helping, and true helping is not asking for return. And helping is hapiness. Take good care because you are not just a legend, but also it helps yourself to have hapiness and contentment.