Dont return evil for evil
Many people question my ability, my education, my personality, sometimes they question even my love (my real feelings with her). My real point is, it is "ok" for them to question or judge me if they are not my "friend, or someone i care about", If people judge me by my co-workers, classmates before or someone i dont know, i dont care... i really dont care, but if someone who i know and call it as a friend, its different.
To express it, she is the first human who underestimate my feelings to my love by sending composed text messages while in the bad conversation, she even underestimate my personality. But she still deny. It was hurt me so bad. I Hope she will realized that she was wrong.
My future, forecasting
Forecasting, one of the things i learn in BA, nice to hear i am also forecasting my own future. Haha everyone knows im so emotional and sentimental when im on the side of what we call "love". Its like selecting music, i almost like all kinds of genre, depends on time.
My wife is the most beautiful lady in this world she is one in a million, she is thacy. A lady who is never been touch, kiss, and no boyfriend since birth. Can you search for that? 8 billion people in this world, only 6 million but only 150 thousand in the philippines. I can tell the whole world how much i love her, She is the most important jewel, and i would die for. My family in laws are loving people, from my father in law, he now return to the congregation my mother in law. Now we are married for almost 4 years with 2 kids and i am now 34 years of age, eventhough i didnt finished my doctoral degree, i have no regrets and i even dont have any plan, theres a lot of offer here and abroad as professor, but i am contented working partime which we live simple and less stress. I am dreaming of my kids to become in full time service. And that will be my final dream of my life. Having thacy is the biggest dream i have before way back 10 years ago, so much struggle and hardships ive done just to let her know how much i really love her and how much i care, the first time i feel how much i love her without any doubts to myself that was since i was 23 years of age, but before that i was 22, i know she is the one and i like her very much. Our marriage was very memorable last 4 years at Kingdom Hall, and my whole family with her family was there for us. My mom also happy for me for being one of her son in full time service. And that was her greatest dream for me and i know that. I can see My 2 kids also in full time service after few years because they are very active. I cannot describe how happy is the family i have, since thacy became my girlfriend, i coundn't ask for more, what a big blessings for me. I even quit all my vices and continue to do good because of her, she change me a lot, and i want to thank her for accidentaly doing that to me. I am full confident of myself that my life cant ask for more, it almost over that i must share with others. Thank you very much...
Why other people hate me without reason?
I cant find any answer why other people hate me, all i know is they are hating and underestimating a people because they just want to be just like the one they are hating. They are happy if they put down the one because they know that they are beyond, they are happy if they compare with lower to them because it makes them in the top. so i might say, they hate me because simply they just want to be just like me... ok ok... they want to be an emo poor man and a loveless person who dream with a very imposible lady, hehehe. lol...
More than an Art
Anyway i uploaded some my own works i consider as art, music, video, poetry, etc. I compile them into a blogsite, http://cthyi.blogspot.com i just created lately, you can check it always if i have time to update them. I love arts.
I like to help, but why?
I love helping people, why? it makes me happy, a single kid in a park that needs a food can be a happy in a single hour, well maybe people dont believe me, coz they think im just impressing, Even a single student who gives me absences, i still care on parents. Why people dont understand that i am not looking for return. The reason i see, is because they dont do, they want return if they help. Well helping people to find genuine knowledge doesnt ask for any value in return. That is one of my principles.
I am not at ease
1991 i graduated my kindergarten, 1997 my elementary, 2001 my high school, when it was my first day of college i was only 15. My teachers are very supportive, good motivation, happy to deal with. They have my deep respect. now it is 2007, for almost 6 years, my life is different compared to a high school graduate before who is dreaming of some worldly goal that he thinks he cannot achieve. People besides me changed a lot, some of the people i consider as true started to fade, they dont motivate me anymore, but try to put me down. Why? because of near end of my goal and soon to be fulfill. Now my point here is, despite of positions in this world. You will see people who are genuine and not. Some are friends because they are higher than you, or they are not insecure, some because of money, some because they want to use you, but there is only one type of person who will never fade always. Those people who consider they deep inside as more important rather than anything in this world. People who dont value physical appearance, educational background, and money. Those are the real friends i have and they are only few.
We just uploaded some funny video last night
Video 1 Link http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=vf8tcnv1gbg
Video 2 Link http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=e0aYpTtbPH0
they are called noobs, sometimes they only care on sunrise and sunset